HEALING THROUGH PAIN
THE MOMENT YOU ENDURE PAIN THAT IS KNOWN TO OTHERS OR SELF. THE QUESTION WOULD ALWAYS BE "HOW ARE WE GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS"?
THESE PAST FEW YEARS IT HAS TAKEN ME THROUGH SOME COARSE TIMES MANY THINGS I DO NOT SHARE. I JUST DO MY BEST IN FINDING WAYS TO BEST GET ME THROUGH (Taking time & dedication). LOSING SO MANY PEOPLE ALONG THE WAY, I HAD NO ONE TO TURN TO BUT ME. I TURNED THAT PAIN INTO SOMETHING POWERFUL
(yes, it's possible), I DID NOT WANT TO FEEL THAT PAIN ANYMORE!
MY MIND TRIED SO HARD TO WRAP ITS MIND AROUND WHAT WAS NOT MAKING SENSE. I WANTED TO UNDERSTAND THESE FEELINGS VERY EAGER. IT WAS AS IF EVERY TIME I GOT CLOSE; I FELT LIKE I WAS STILL FALLING SHORT. THESE HUMAN EMOTIONS HAD CONTROL OVER ME THAT I DID NOT HAVE OVER MYSELF.
GOING INTO A DEEPER DEPRESSION WAS SURELY NOT IT. HOW LONG WOULD IT BE BEFORE I CAME OUT OF THAT I UNDERSTOOD WHAT IT MEANT GOING BACK AT THAT POINT. IN THIS MOMENT I KNEW HOW MUCH WORK IT TOOK ME TO GET MY MIND TO WHERE IT IS. I WAS FINALLY BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND; I WAS STILL IN THE BEGINNING STAGES. IN THIS MOMENT I WAS TOO FRAGILE & PRONE TO BE ABSORBING PAIN AND WEARING IT LIKE A THICK SWEATER UNTIL IT WEIGHED ME DOWN!! IT WAS APART OF ME IN SO MANY WAYS! I CLAIMED IT AS ONE. I UNDERSTOOD PAIN MORE THAN I SHOULD HAVE. I NO LONGER WANTED TO BE APART OF THAT. I WANTED TO TAKE CHARGE I DID NOT KNOW HOW BUT ALL I KNEW IS THAT I WANTED TO TAKE CHARGE. IT SURELY DID FEEL LIKE I WAS LOSING MY MIND GOING OUT OF CONTROL.
I WAS MORE SO GAINING CONTROL OF WHAT I HAD LET STAY OUT OF CONTROL FOR SO LONG. I THEN BEGAN TO GO THROUGH WHAT
MANY DONT ALWAYS EXPERIENCE, I WAS IN MY SUBCONCIOUS HAD TO TAKE OVER MY MIND IN ORDER FOR ME TO GET THROUGH MY LIFE. TRAUMA CAN CAUSE YOU TO SLIP AWAY FROM REALITY AND IN BY SLIPPING AWAY YOU CAN STAY DEEP IN TO THAT (DARK, DEEP, SUNKEN, PLACE). OF COUSRE, IT DID NOT SIT WELL WITH ME SO I GREW TO UNDERSTAND WHAT EACH PART MEANT.
LIVING IN SURVIVAL MODE INSTEAD OF LIVING LIFE IS A DIFFERENT WORLD/ DIMENSION WITHIN ITSELF. I GRABBED A BOOK A BEGAN TO JOT DOWN EVERY EMOTION, SITUATION I WAS GOING THROUGH/ RELATIONSHIP ISSUES/ RESOLUTIONS TO THOSE ISSUES AND PUZZLING THEM TOGETHER. TRY IT! IM TURNING THAT ALL INTO HEALING WORDS FOR OTHERS WHO HAS EXPERIENCE TRAUMA IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS!! NO MATTER HOW BIG OR HOW SMALL!!
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Meeting yourself again
ENCOURAGE / DISCOURAGE
Not Remembering things ok. Some people come along from a time you know you wasn't yourself. you were hanging around people that if who you were now, you try to imagine whatever did you all have in common. Don't let them tell you its drugs, don't let them make you think that your crazy. You disconnected from the part of you that never felt apart of that crown and I'm telling you that, it is OKAY; YOU HAVE REACHED A LEVEL OF GROWTH THAT THEY NO LONGER UNDER STAND.
Managing Pain
In this Photo it determines which choice one choose to make in spite of the other. many choose to struggle when the choice of living is so close, when you are rushing it may be hard to see. That does not mean it isn't there just means you need to clear your path in order to see what is right in front of you.
Understanding the Importance of Affirmations !
WE LET SOCIETY RAISE OUR KIDS TOO MUCH. IT CAN BE A DIFFICULT TASK BUT WE GOT THIS!! UNDERSTANDING OUR CHILDREN NEVER STOPS. THE WORLD THROW SO MUCH STUFF AT THEM
Emotions are like Chemicals - Mix Properly
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W. She Meets Herself Again
